This has been a very tumultuous week and a half. I am a mortgage broker and before anyone asks, I am doing very well and God has truly, fully, blessed my business (but more is always welcome :o). But as many are aware the markets are hurting for many reasons and the media is NOT helping.
Usually I can ignore the media and the one sided libel that they spew on a regular basis. But every so often I get drawn in, especially when it pertains to areas close to my job. Last week was quite the storm and it's not over, but unlike last week I know where my anchor is.
It was days ago, just about when this all started hitting the media, that we read Luke 8:22-25. Jesus was on the boat, crossing a large body of water with disciples. The storm hit, He was asleep and they feared so much they woke Him. His admonishment was not unkind, but a great reminder of His authority.
God always answers prayer and it is so rare for me to see the answer from the beginning. As I prayed when we started this program that God would increase my faith I was smart enough not to guess how He would do it. But I sure didn't see it coming. Emotionally I have been tossed and beaten by everything going on. Not knowing where my family's future would settle, would I still have a job, would I still be able to write loans? And as the doubts blew in the fear got stronger and more choppy. My life was pushed harder away from God because I lost my anchor and foundation.
I can't help but to laugh at myself now. How similar I am to the disciples in the boat. I felt like God was not paying attention, knowing He was there but not sure He was watching what I was going through. How weak and frail is my faith? God resides in me, fully knowing all that I go through daily, yet I let my fear guide me. His admonishment in Luke 8:25 was a great wakeup slap for me.
Bad things will happen to me in the future, but I need to read and remember that God is my boat, my anchor, my captain and my protector. Even when, in my inability as a human to understand His awesomeness, I cannot see His direct guidance of my life.
N8
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Been there myself. Who am I kidding....Am there now! Today I was reading in Isaiah 64:4 "For since the world began, no ear has heard, and no eye has seen a God like You, who works for those who wait for Him!" Course waiting involves trusting and knowing without a doubt He WILL WORK for us as we wait on Him! Thanks for the reminder that in clinging to God we find REST. LR
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